I will go into my New Year's resolutions in detail more when I get back from Hawaii (yep, still on vacation!) but one resolution is for sure: At some point this year (hopefully by August of course, but I will settle for any point during 2010!) I will make my goal weight/size!
And there will be no more of the above illustration happening in 2010 or beyond. Period.
So as I mentioned two weeks ago the guy I'm seeing seems to have really meant it when he said he just needed a break. But my gut told me to treat a break as a break up & I'm glad I did. It made me reassess and reboot my life & direction, and made it a pleasant surprise when he started contacting me again, especially so soon.
These days I am acutely aware of anything that inspires me, motivates me, or sparks any thought or interest. So when on Wednesday night as he and I were texting back and forth, one text jumped out at me & I decided I need to use it!
He texted that I'm too tempting, basically implying he'd rather spend time with me than doing other work or social obligations this weekend. So my ego being stroked aside, it occurred to me that if I really want to make this guy swoon (& who doesn't want to exert all their womanly powers to make a man fall to their knees? Muahaha!) I need to lose weight. Now, don't get me wrong, this guy likes me the way I am, but who doesn't look better when they lose weight, and not to mention the obvious fact that that is exactly what I am trying to do anyway. So I'm thinking if I'm already too tempting then sexy, svelte, skinny Me will be ten times as tempting as Current Me, and he won't be able to resist!
Factor for being Fat Free: I want to be too tempting in every possible way. Simply put, to be simply irresistible! Even *I* won't be able to resist loving me and making sure I always get nothing less than what I deserve.
And because I love to laugh and enjoy being as cheesy as hell, on top of the fact that I'm a product of the 80's, here's a little 80's classic music video:
I don't even know if marriage is something I want, but regardless....
Factor for being Fat Free: For all major future events I want to be the me I am trying to be. The REAL Me. I want to take photos and not worry about bellies, angles, or double chins. I want to be able to pick a Halloween costume based on what I want to be, not on what will fit and/or flatter my fuller figure. I want to be comfortable in my own skin and not have to tread on eggshells for fear of the ground collapsing beneath me! (or the chair, or what have you...) I want to be the light, pretty sprinkles on top of my cake, not the fat ass who fell right into it! (Oh, and I want to have my cake and eat it too one day, slim and guilt-free!*)
*Although by then I will have learned the true value of 'indulge in moderation', not to mention will probably enjoy the extra workout just to make sure that cake remains a pleasure on the lips and doesn't get the chance to take up residency anywhere else!
I am going to lose 105lbs in the next 12 months, and I'm going to do it the old fashioned way. Healthy eating, exercising regularly, balanced lifestyle, and the occasional venting and/or gushing about the whole damn thing.
