105 in 365

FFFF#19: Because we've all been there

2010-01-01T09:00:00.000-05:00

Happy New Year!!!I will go into my New Year's resolutions in detail more when I get back from Hawaii (yep, still on vacation!) but one resolution is for sure: At some point this year (hopefully by August of course, but I will settle for any point during 2010!) I will make my goal weight/size!And there will be no more of the above illustration happening in 2010 or beyond. Period.

FFFF#18: Mrs Claus is a Wise Woman

2009-12-25T09:00:00.000-05:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!Be happy, be safe, and whatever choices you make (regardless of what they are), be PROUD of them!

Enabler Schmabler

2009-12-24T09:00:00.001-05:00

Maybe it's because most of my friends are male...Maybe it's because of the female friends I do have, they are all slim to average size...Maybe it's because I'm a size 18 as opposed to my former size 24/26, so it's "easier" to find women who are a similar size to me...Who knows? Either way, i am suddenly noticing there are more women who are a similar size to me in my day-to-day life these days.

Shake (Off) What Your Mama Gave You!

2009-12-23T09:00:00.000-05:00

Does anyone else find it strange that amongst the list of things I want to do when I am at my goal size, there are quite a few... how shall we say, "risque" activities?Things like:-- I want to be a Hooters girl! (No really, I do!)-- I want to pole dance & actually be really good at it (No really, I do!)-- I want to dance in a cage or in a glass booth behind a bar, or something along those lines (

See You Next Year!

2009-12-22T09:00:00.001-05:00

Time's up folks! By the time this post hits its pre-scheduled posting time, I will already be on a plane somewhere between New York City and Hawaii. Woohoo!!!This is much more of a relaxation holiday; No itinerary necessary. The only thing on the agenda is walking (maybe some wogging), tanning, and relaxing. Rinse, repeat :)I will be back in 2010 refreshed, rejuvenated, tanned, & hopefully a few

FFFF#17: Don't Believe Everything You Read

2009-12-18T09:00:00.001-05:00

Although as obvious as this is, I must remember that this is FALSE when I am lazing around on the beach next week... 4 more sleeps to go until Hawaii vacation!

FFFF#16: By Popular Demand

2009-12-11T09:00:00.002-05:00

Well! You guys certainly are a pushy bunch! hahaha!In truth, I put these pictures together when I first started this blog. But I hadn't decided whether or not to post them. My last post was specifically about how people, namely me, really do have that sparkle in their eye and truly look happier as their face gets thinner. But I wasn't about to plaster my face all over my anonymous blog. but I can

Be Happier

2009-12-09T07:50:00.002-05:00

I did a little comparison of some photos of me. It should come at no surprise that unless a photo was taken specifically as a "before" photo, finding photos of me before is actually quite difficult. And if you want to find a full body one from before? Forget it! I never let it happen!I'm noticing I'm a little more willing to be in photos and a little more willing for it be more than just a head

FFFF#15: The 3 P's

2009-12-04T09:00:00.001-05:00

Something that has been prevalent for me this week is being proud of my choices. So naturally I started throwing around ideas of that nature for my Factors for being Fat-Free Friday this week. Here's what I came up with: The three P's...Pride.Power.Personal Best.Pride.As you already know my mantra for this week (and probably beyond) is to be proud of my choices. To make whichever choices I want,

Pride

2009-12-02T09:00:00.001-05:00

I remember the mantra I used when I started on this journey: 'Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.' and wow did it work!But as you progress along your journey, you change much more than you realize. You need to constantly reassess and check-in with yourself. Are you motivated by the same reasons? Do you want the same things? Quite often the things that used to give you trouble and challenge you

My Favourite Kind of Reboot

2009-12-01T14:24:00.006-05:00

I am a social loner. I love being social, but I can very easily go off and do my own thing. Sometimes I am defiant about it, most times though it comes very naturally to me. I think it's the latter that worries, scares, or confuses people. But when I'm confident about something people's opinions rarely matter to me.I felt the need to blog today because it feels like forever since I have. Then I

I hate realizations like this...

2009-11-29T10:33:00.005-05:00

OK. Once again, here is something I realized a few days ago and it's so shameful it didn't even occur to me to blog about it. But here goes:Deep breath....One year ago (11/19/2008 to be exact) I was 20lbs lighter.SAY WHAT?!Yep, in the space of a year I've gained 20lbs. I know, that can't be right!!! Can it?! Wait, what? Can you please repeat that?! No wait, don't. I don't want to hear it again.

Knock, Knock! Housekeeping!

2009-11-29T09:50:00.003-05:00

I have a few draft blogs just sitting around. Some just from the past 7 days.... others since August. Yikes! Definitely time for me to do a little cleaning up.I would have thought some would become a moot point, especially the older ones. But glancing back I'm surprised how few are. In fact, the ones I do consider a little irrelvent now are still valid, and I don't think they should necessarily

I'm Walking Away

2009-11-28T12:15:00.005-05:00

My Leslie Sansone DVDs have arrived!I finally saved up the cash & remembered to hit amazon.com and ordered 3 of them. Free shipping too! (Because who pays for shipping these days, really!)So here we go! No more excuses... Daylight Savings ended & it's dark out all the time? Solved!No space in teeny NYC apartment? Solved!No exercise equipment? Solved!Even the time crunch is solved because even

FFFF#14: Simply Irresistable

2009-11-27T09:00:00.002-05:00

So as I mentioned two weeks ago the guy I'm seeing seems to have really meant it when he said he just needed a break. But my gut told me to treat a break as a break up & I'm glad I did. It made me reassess and reboot my life & direction, and made it a pleasant surprise when he started contacting me again, especially so soon.These days I am acutely aware of anything that inspires me, motivates me,

My New Best Friend Part II

2009-11-26T17:06:00.010-05:00

When I first mentioned my new best friend (of whom has still not been named! But she doesn't mind, she tags along with me whereever I go anyway), Jacey mentioned would I mind posting pictures. It would be a little personal, but definitely a good idea! Besides, I think they're too small for you guys to really read anything ;)It's probably the reason I don't blog as much as I used to. Because all

Cruise Control

2009-11-25T23:40:00.001-05:00

Just checking in.... I believe I'm up to Day 29 of my mini-goal now...Everything is cruising right now. It's not great, but it's far from bad either. But for the first time in a long time, I feel as though there's nothing to push. Everything in life right now, particularly weight loss, is going to take time and it will happen when it happens. Sure, I can push, I can fight harder, but ultimately

Things That Go Bump In The Night

2009-11-22T08:05:00.005-05:00

Confession time! I'm a midnight munchie eater.And I don't mean the late night munchies in front of the TV kind. I mean the middle of the night kind. The kind where you wake up, eat, and go back to sleep. Talk about unhealthy!It's almost scary how long I've been doing this and not really questioning it. That is to say, i do question it, and i know there's something up with that, but i'm surprised

No-one Said It Would Be Easy

2009-11-22T00:24:00.002-05:00

I'm a little bit upset & teary right now but rather than just dive in I'm going to start this one from the top.My NYC best friend (I have many best friends; sometimes classifying by region is easiest!) and we haven't really seen each other since the summer. He's had a (sort of) promotion, moved in with his partner, had to go home to KY to deal with family stuff, & probably had plenty more

Is It Really So Unbelieveable?

2009-11-21T09:00:00.002-05:00

Why is it so hard to believe that I deserve this?After a tearful conversation with my mother explaining to her how much it hurts that she even entertains the notion that she might need to caution me every now & then about regaining (all) the weight, I went into great detail about how I am a very different person emotionally now. This is a difficult subject for us, or more specifically for me to

FFFF#13: Done!

2009-11-20T10:54:00.005-05:00

I was watching The Biggest Loser on Hulu when one of the contestants said 'the next time you see me America I will be done with losing weight'(excuse me if I just butchered the quote; it's not verbatim).This one hit me like a slap in the face: A great factor for being fat free is to be DONE. I want to be done with losing weight.Honestly, I'm tired. I'm sick of this. Why can't I just be at goal

Never Ever

2009-11-19T09:36:00.004-05:00

I have been feeling a little lost this last week or so. In the moment, things are fine, I'll probably even tell you that I'm happy. Which is true. But nonetheless, I feel like I'm playing catch up right now. I am letting old habits creep back in. The way things become so 'important' to me that they get all my time and energy and focus and dedication, when really the ONLY thing in my life that

FFFF#12: Do You See What I See?

2009-11-13T21:54:00.003-05:00

I almost missed Factors for being Fat Free Friday! This week has been crazy. Slipping but not quite. Succeeding but not really. Lots of ups & downs, lack of sleep, work, school, study, repeat. Not to mention the guy I was seeing for a year and a half has come back into the picture (wow, did he really mean it when he said he needed a break? Was I too cynical in assuming it was a break up?). I

Day 12

2009-11-08T23:59:00.000-05:00

Sweet Success... woke up and - get this! - I was actually EXCITED to make another day filled with good decisions! How awesome is that?! I woke up, got excited about having another perfect or near-perfect day, smiled, and thought 4.2. That's literally what went through my mind. I'm so thrilled that a switch somewhere in my head has been flipped. Now to nurture and take care of it! (Oh, and I did

Admit It, You Love It

2009-11-08T09:51:00.006-05:00

I am "borrowing" (aka totally ripping off) an idea from 100in12. I think I am long overdue for a little self-love! Which works out perfectly for today! (which I'll tell you all about when I do my 'Day 12' post tonight)Things I love about my bodyin no particular order1.) I actually love that I have hips. Sometimes this translates to a big butt, which I don't particularly mind but it's not

Day 11

2009-11-07T23:59:00.000-05:00

Sweet Success... A 100% diet day! WOOHOO!! Every food crossed off and accounted for! I feel great!Slowly Striving... 6,491 steps. Not bad (in fact, quite good!) but I can do better!Thoughts... "FEAR = Forced Experiences Appearing Real" <--- This is so true! I will not be afraid anymore. And I think "4.2" is really helping! Becaus the only way I will succeed at losing 4.2lbs in one week is to

F.E.A.R.

2009-11-07T22:36:00.002-05:00

Sometimes learning Shiatsu massage annoys the crap out of me. It can be completely backwards compared to typical Western Medicine & learning both in tandem can be confusing. But then there are days like today where I love Shiatsu. Because after all, it is about the Mind, the Body, and the Soul all being both independent & interdependent.Without going into the whole "Introduction to Eastern 101"

Day 10

2009-11-06T23:59:00.003-05:00

Sweet Success... Took some time after getting home for my JC appointment to sort out my food plan for the week. I've made it a no brainer. All I have to do is CROSS IT OFF. No adding & no substituting this week. Just crossing things off. No more. No less.Slowly Striving... This should I deserve to make this today's success, but I believe I can push harder. I lost 0.8lbs this week. It's not much

FFFF#11: Angels

2009-11-06T09:00:00.002-05:00

The last time I was in Victoria's Secret, I finally succumbed to their incessant badgering & signed up for an Angels Card. So now I am a fully fledged Angel (whatever that means). As I'm poking around the website wondering if there's anything that's going to make me want to take advantage of the free shipping coupon I have I realize that although I fit into SOME things at Victoria's Secret, I am

Day 9

2009-11-05T23:59:00.003-05:00

Sweet Success... I discovered I'm flexible enough to do a standing split again! Flexibility has been something I have been slowly but surely plugging away at. I didn't think I was even close to achieving a standing split until I decided to randomly try to tonight. And it wasn't even a real struggle either! (which makes me wonder how long have I probably been able to do this but hadn't tried to?

Non-Scale Victories are SOOO Much Sweeter!

2009-11-05T22:42:00.005-05:00

I'm just going to come straight out with it: Today I popped into one of these!<<-----------------------------------------I couldn't believe it! I don't remember when I stopped being able to do a Standing Split but I do remember the last time I was able to do one with no problems. It was around the time when I was still dancing: so around 18 years old. I'm now 27. While my friends tonight were

Day 8

2009-11-04T23:59:00.000-05:00

Sweet Success... Thanks to the Final Exam last night, I got to take the day off from studying. So between work & class I walked. It was just round the neighborhood & I tried to keep a good pace despite the New York foot traffic; I don't know if it helped but I guess it helped my pedometer: 8,853 steps. I'm kinda loving how my number of steps are so much higher than I would have guessed they were!

It's All About The Trust

2009-11-04T23:16:00.004-05:00

I need to trust the process. I don't know if I'm having trouble putting trust in something or if it's self-sabotage, or maybe I haven't made a real connection as to WHY I need to put trust in the process... WHATEVER. The point is I need to trust it. Plain and simple. I may need to fake this one till I get the hang of it! Write everything down, cross everything off, and just trust that eating ALL

Day 7

2009-11-04T10:34:00.003-05:00

Sweet Success... the first thing that jumps to mind is I scored 96% on my Anatomy & Physiology Final. I drank lots of water consistantly throughout the day too.Slowly Striving... I didn't eat that much because I was so stressed out! When I was younger I had incredible test anxiety and apparently I didn't grow out of it, I just stopped taking tests! Hm, something to work on...Thoughts... an

I am a Force to be Reckoned With

2009-11-03T07:56:00.002-05:00

Jillian Michaels said somewhere to acknowledge that you are a force to be reckoned with. And within the last week I came across the quote below talking about being the force.Today I will be a force of strength. I will believe that I am strong enough and able enough to make the best decisions for me and my goals and will not blame it on situation, emotions, or circumstance. Not all things are

Day 6

2009-11-02T23:59:00.000-05:00

Sweet Success... 13,347 steps! Slowly Striving... missing some fruit servings. I think I need to buy fruit juice again. It's better not to drink your calories & of course fruit is better cause you're getting some fiber, but juice is a better solution than nothing at all. Money & (lack of) time (to shop) are also two issues, but I am doing all that I can with those two right now. I'm trying to not

Get Aggressive

2009-11-02T11:09:00.005-05:00

I'm posting a quote I've already posted because I need to be reminded:“To change one's life: start immediately. Do it flamboyantly. No exceptions.”- William JamesAfter my 4 beer disaster on the weekend, it's time to get aggressive. I used to say no to all social calories because I was *that* determined to succeed and you know what? It worked. I used to religiously cross everything off my food

Days 4 & 5

2009-11-02T10:50:00.004-05:00

I was going to skip these days because I was just going to do daily postings when I can, but especially cause they weren't great, it's best that I remain accountable for them.Day 4Sweet Success... I drank all my water!!! This is an achievement for a Saturday! I am in class all day and I cannot be running in & out to go to the bathroom constantly (this is usually my issue when I don't drink all my

Frequent Flyer Loser Miles

2009-11-01T09:00:00.000-05:00

I'm sharing from my New Bestie already! This list of mini-goal rewards is definitely a work in progress. I expect it to grow and change as I continue to shrink and change! But here's what I have so far...note: Because I grew up in the metric system, kilograms have more meaning to me (they have more weight. haha.. sorry, I couldn't resist!) I like weighing in pounds because they are just numbers

Day 3

2009-10-30T23:38:00.000-04:00

Sweet Success... Despite being busy and bloated and with cramps, I didn't cancel my JC appointment. It really is important to go every week, even when you don't want to! So I kept it. After all, one of the major reasons to go to a weight loss centre is the accountability! (I weighed in backwards though (ie. stepped on the scale backwards so I couldn't see the number) so that my consultant could

My New Best Friend

2009-10-30T14:14:00.008-04:00

I can't believe I forgot to mention this sooner! I have a new best friend. I'm not sure what its name is yet, and I'm not even sure if it's a he or a she (leaning towards a she) but it's a new notebook/planner/dairy that I bought specifically for weight loss. (And yes, I fully intend on naming it eventually!)I tried a few different iPod apps for recording everything. There are some amazing apps

FFFF#10: Have My Cake & Eat It Too

2009-10-30T09:00:00.002-04:00

An oldie but a goodie :)I don't even know if marriage is something I want, but regardless.... Factor for being Fat Free: For all major future events I want to be the me I am trying to be. The REAL Me. I want to take photos and not worry about bellies, angles, or double chins. I want to be able to pick a Halloween costume based on what I want to be, not on what will fit and/or flatter my fuller

Day 2

2009-10-29T22:50:00.002-04:00

Sweet Success... 8,124 steps today. I have been wearing my pedometer all week and I'm surprised by how much natural activity I get in every day.Slowly Striving... Had a diet coke today. I know this isn't the worst thing in the world, but living without soda would be nice. I also need to plan my food better. I am going the majority of the afternoon without much food. I'm not hungry, but in an

Day 1

2009-10-28T23:59:00.000-04:00

Sweet Success... Could have hopped on the subway to go home at 8pm. But because 8pm is an early night for me, I decided to walk a few extra blocks first. Result? 9,656 steps today!Slowly Striving... I will pay closer attention that I am eating every 4 hours. Also watch my water intake now that it's getting colder. Still have to keep it up to 2 liters or more!Thoughts... Not too shabby at all I

80,640

2009-10-28T09:28:00.002-04:00

OK, I'm going to try something crazy. It is exactly 8 weeks to the day that I will be getting on a plane to go to Hawaii. That gives me 8 weeks to lose 20lbs or 1 size. So!... Let's call this:DAY 1.Gulp. I can barely keep up with my blog as it is but somehow counting the days may actually help. I cannot promise I will blog everyday, but you can be sure I will be counting every one of those 56

Try, Try Again

2009-10-28T01:58:00.007-04:00

Wow. Things are so crazy. If I was just trying to exist I would be fine, but I am done with that portion of my life. I now want... no! I deserve...no! in fact I will settle for nothing less than... to try to excel at all that I do. (Overachieve much?) I used to think only my career was important. But now I know it's ALL important because it's ALL interdependent. Why? Because it's all connected by

FFFF#9: A Vacation Victory?

2009-10-23T09:00:00.000-04:00

Another Factors for being Fat Free Friday, and this week, also a mini-goal!So it seems Hawaii for Thanksgiving isn't happening, it's happening for Christmas & New Year instead! Awesomeness! Talk about motivation!105lbs is so daunting. But setting 20lbs by mid-December seems much more doable!Factor for being Fat Free for this week? To feel good about my body's progress and my achievements while on

PSP in NYC

2009-10-21T09:00:00.005-04:00

Brace yourself 'Losers', cause here is my first Feature Blogger!I have only recently started consistantly reading blogs, around the same time I myself started blogging actually. And of course as many of you can relate, you have your faves and ones that jump out at you. The Big Girl Blog is one of those blogs for me.First off, I LOVE that she coined the term PSP (Plus Size Princess), that says it

Baby, Dream Your Dream...

2009-10-18T09:00:00.000-04:00

Baby, dream your dream, Close your eyes and try it...Sorry, went off on a Sweet Charity tangent there (I love muscials, especially the classic ones & ones set in the 50's and 60's). ANYway, so today's post feels a little random but I'm happy about posting it all the same. Because I like the quirky little observations the best :)So here's a question I'm throwing out into the cyber universe:What

FFFF#8: The F Word

2009-10-16T09:00:00.003-04:00

I have three F words that I'd like to share. The first is...FAILURE.It might sound cliche but failure is not an option. It just isn't. Now that I am actually trying I will never quit, I will never give up, all because that is how much I fear failure. Mistakes? fine. Slips? OK. But failure? Never. And my weight is the closest I have ever really come to really failing at something. And failing

I'm Making It Personal

2009-10-12T13:42:00.005-04:00

One of my fabulous teachers at massage school is also a personal trainer. Unfortunately it is a conflict of interest for her to train a student (damn! because I swear she is the Latina version of Jillian Michaels and probably knows how to make me sweat, cry, and throw up all at the same time) but she said she has some people she can recommend and asked would I prefer a woman or a man?As someone

A Weight Lifted

2009-10-10T00:03:00.003-04:00

I feel as though an enormous weight has been lifted, and I am extremely surprised that I feel this way.After 16 months, the guy I was seeing called it off. His comments over the past month or so, and definitely in the last week were leading in the direction of wanting a fresh start, and I thought that he was telling me this because he wanted me to be part of this 'new chapter' of his life. Alas,

FFFF#7: No More Double Stuffed Oreos!

2009-10-09T09:00:00.001-04:00

I'm keeping it simple this week. Sometimes less is more.This picture says to all really.Factor for being Fat Free: I want to be regular sized, not double stuffed size.And you know what? I'll still be just as sweet!

Forgive Me, For I Have Sinned

2009-10-07T09:00:00.000-04:00

OK. Confession Time.I don't understand why this has been so hard for me to admit because this blog is anonymous after all. I think I fear the failure as well as the judgment and pity party. But here goes....You may remember I started this blog when my favourite JC consultant left JC for bigger and better things. At the time I also decided it would be the perfect time to take a little break from

Fat Girls Are Pretty Too

2009-10-05T08:30:00.000-04:00

I am always proud to declare that I am a jeans and sneakers girl. In fact, as I've lost more weight I can't help noticing I am buying more cute tees with prints and more fun sneakers (oh Nike, you know just what i like and the way i like it!). But i have to wonder... is this part of Fat Girl Mentality and I'm just having trouble breaking out of it, or am I truly a jeans and sneakers gal?Because

FFFF #6: It's the Little Things

2009-10-02T07:30:00.002-04:00

In my busy week, I made little mental notes of little things I'd like to be different. And all of these things are possible if I stay strong, stay focused, and keep losing!In no particular order...1.) Being able to comfortably hook my my whole thumb into my back pocket of my jeans while hooking my whole forefinger into the front pocket at the same time. This can only be done when you're smaller

It's Just A Number

2009-10-01T09:00:00.000-04:00

I feel like I should explain something. 105lbs is just a number to me.I would love to lose 105lbs and weigh 155lbs at the end of all this. In fact, according to all those height/weight proportion charts, 155lbs is even heavy for my height (I'm 5'3). But I call bullshit on those charts cause I have been a size 8 both at 135lbs & 175lbs; I consider myself one of the lucky few learning first hand

See You on the Other Side

2009-09-28T08:44:00.006-04:00

This is just a little advanced warning that I will most likely be MIA for the next 1-2 weeks. I will be at least trying to keep up with my Factors for being Fat Free Fridays but I can't make any promises*.School is getting crazy but I'm loving every minute of it. There are the 20 class hours a week, but quizzes and assignments are multiplying, not to mention finding practice time. If massage was

FFFF#5: When I was a Wee Lass...

2009-09-25T08:49:00.002-04:00

... I was a competitive Scottish Highland Dancer. No, really! I was!From 13 glorious years from ages 5-18 my life consisted of 2-3 dance classes a week, practicing in my living room after school, and travelling to many competitions both regionally, nationally, and on one occasion, internationally*.I only bring this up because what I wouldn't give to do one last competition. To be that fit again.

Meet My Evil Twin

2009-09-21T11:32:00.004-04:00

As I was perusing facebook last night, I came across some newly uploaded photos of one of my facebook friends. These photos made me delightfully happy and motivated me to no end, so one of my first reactions was that I simply must blog about this! But then I realized in order to blog about it, I'm going to have to knowingly be outright rude, mean, and basically a bitch. So, without further delay,

Who Do You Worship?

2009-09-20T10:33:00.007-04:00

What better day to talk about 'our bodies being our temples' than on a Sunday! So please turn the page* with the passage about how we are taking control of our bodies and fighting the fat! I had an amazing day yesterday. If I haven't already mentioned I am studying massage therapy and should have my license by January 2011. Studying massage therapy and ultimately becoming a massage therapist for

FFF#4: Keep Dreaming

2009-09-18T07:39:00.000-04:00

Dream.Believe.Create.Succeed.I love each and every one of these words, especially when you put them together in this order. This is one of the first quotes I fell in love with and it continues to inspire me.This is one of my Future-Me pics. What better way to list my Factors for being Fat Free Friday than to tell you exactly what it is about this picture that makes it so great.- A flat belly.

Shake What Your Mama Gave You!

2009-09-16T16:01:00.004-04:00

This will be my last apology for not being more consistent with my blogging and tweeting. So: I'm sorry! Truly, I am! And I am apologizing to myself as much as each and every one of you who care to drop by (and who I really love for doing so!).But I say last because I know I get bored of reading "I'm so sorry!" at the start of every post. I can't help thinking 'Yes, yes, we know, just get to the

You Can Take the Girl Out of the Blog...

2009-09-11T07:41:00.005-04:00

Oh my! Ever since classes started I am one busy, busy girl! But don't worry, I have stayed faithfully on track. If anything, that's the reason I wasn't blogging - every spare second was taken up being as healthy as possible in the given circumstances!Hopefully more to come on my busy little bumblebee happenings later... right now I just really wanted to post some runs! I think I'm ready for week

FFFF#3: The Truth, The Whole Truth, & Nothing But The Truth

2009-09-11T07:19:00.002-04:00

One of the ultimate reasons I want to be fat free is because I no longer want fat to be an excuse.I didn't think I ever used fat as an excuse. When I realized I sometimes do, I realized that it was happening in many more cases than I care to admit.And I'm not talking about the run-of-the-mill 'I chose not to go to a party because I feel fat', even though that is a very valid form of using fat as

Dead without Deadlines

2009-09-08T11:51:00.003-04:00

I think it's time to start setting more mini-goals WITH dates attached.I think I stopped when I was failing them more often than not and it was really starting to get me down.But it's time to slap myself and snap out of it (did anyone else just picture Cher in Moonstruck?) Deadlines will push me to succeed. And if I fail the deadline it does not mean I failed myself!!! Quite the opposite! The

Does this mean I get a detention?

2009-09-08T09:24:00.008-04:00

I have a very long day today, or at least longer than I'm used to: 9am-10pm. So when my alarm went off at 5:55am for my morning workout, I reset it and opted for an extra hour of sleep. Was that bad?I am only supposed to run on alternate days with the c25k program and I know I was planning on a cardio session, so that's not a bad thing. But I really should have got in some resistance and strength

Must've been the bikini pics...

2009-09-07T13:58:00.001-04:00

How could I forget??! I got a new personal best for the mile this morning: 13.58woot! woot!

Labor & Labor Pains

2009-09-07T09:43:00.005-04:00

Happy Labor Day everyone!I'm feeling much, much better now that the ibuprofen has kicked in. And I have to say, I am off to a stellar start for the day! Got the laboring part in (Day 2 of week 2 of c25k can kiss my big jiggly butt!), & unfortunately you can put a big check next to the labor pains too (good god someone please just remove my uterus! It would be so much less painful than enduring

STOOPID!!!

2009-09-06T09:32:00.006-04:00

I ruined my own run this morning! I could kill myself! I felt so angry and disappointed at the same time. In fact, I still am feeling disappointed. Let me start at the beginning and take you on the whole journey...Got up at 6am. I was at the park by 630am. I was feeling great. Early mornings do that to me. Partly cause there's something so exhilarating yet peaceful about early mornings and partly

Kicking Some Interval Butt!

2009-09-04T11:07:00.004-04:00

Hey! c25k! Yeah, week 2! I'm talking to you!I just want to say..... HA! Take that week 2 of c25k! I thought at times during that 30 minutes you were going to get the better of me, but I am stronger than you and I persevered and you were over before I knew it and guess what? I was still standing on the other side! So take that! Neener-neener-neener!Look at me go! woot! woot! [insert happy dance

FFFF #2: Coulda Woulda Shoulda

2009-09-04T06:04:00.000-04:00

I shouldn't "should" myself to death, but here's my list for Factors to be Fat Free Friday anyway!Under the microscope...1.) Collarbones. I should be able to see them clearly2.) Chin. There should only be 1, regardless of angle3.) When I wave at someone and then stop, my upper arm should not still be waving at them on its on accord4.) My belly shouldn't need its own sports bra when I run5.)

Is "Struggling" an Ugly Word?

2009-09-03T12:22:00.005-04:00

Even though I have only been blogging for about a month now, I have been on this journey since July 2007. When I remind myself that I have been losing or trying to lose for over 2 years, I am a little more forgiving of myself when I see my inspiration and motivation wavering.But I don't like to admit that I have trouble staying focused. Because in a sense, I don't. Am I happy where I am

It's just like I imagined, only better!

2009-09-02T23:47:00.008-04:00

I almost didn't post today. My new work schedule has meant that Wednesday is typically my lazy day. My 'do whatever I want' day.Now this doesn't mean a hiatus from my diet or exercise plans, but it does mean a little vacation from responsibility for a day. No bill paying, no money-worrying, no meetings, no phone calls to make, no errands to run. Nothing but whatever I FEEL like doing. However,

The Subway Just Got a Little Sweeter

2009-09-01T11:24:00.005-04:00

... or unsweetened as the case may be.I saw a story on NY1 this morning and I have to admit, I am in full support of this!Not only does it make for more interesting reading on the subway for me (like the poster with a list of calories in certain beverages; I just know I am going to end up memorizing that list during my daily commute), but because it's totally true! New Yorkers, generally speaking

Oh Yeah? Make Me!

2009-09-01T09:56:00.006-04:00

I didn't go for my run this morning, I got an extra hour of sleep instead.And for once, I'm not beating myself up about it (well, not completely anyway). Evidently I needed the extra hour of sleep. I'm tired, cranky, crabby, bloated, and defensive for no reason. I'm just thankful this isn't a 'lighting quick temper' month or a 'burst into tears over my pen falling off the desk' month.Part of me

I want to thank my fellow nominees...

2009-08-30T14:05:00.008-04:00

Thank you! Oh! Thank you! I can hardly believe this! I feel so lucky! And this award - it's so shiny and svelte! Oh, thank you again! It's just so unexpected! I didn't even have a speech prepared! I just want everyone to know that even in my wildest dreams of blogging, I never would have imagined that this could ever happen to me. And to the other super-amazing nominees, I want each of you to

Quote It

2009-08-30T09:51:00.004-04:00

Like most people, I love a good quote. The ones I treasure most are the ones that provoke an instant 'Yes!' response when I finish reading them. Some are complex, some are simple. But what they all have in common is they hit something deep in me that make me believe I can do anything.This one is definitely 'less is more' but I love it anyway.“Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try.”

Back in the Game!

2009-08-30T09:30:00.003-04:00

Alarm goes off.I turn it off.I contemplate going back to sleep.Wait, I am experiencing déjà vu.This happened yesterday morning, & I remember how mad and upset I was at myself.Not again.Not today.Success! Up and out the door at 630am to get my wog on! I feel great! Most of all, I'm excited about my next workout. I finally feel ready to move on to week 2 of c25k. Watch this space...

I want my discipline back!

2009-08-29T15:31:00.007-04:00

There isn't go to be much structure to this post, but I have a lot running through my mind and feel the need to throw it out there...Please note: I highly suspect PMS is the driving force behind the need to write this post. Read into that what you will. Just please consider yourself warned!-- Where has my resolve gone? i seem to be weakening diet-wise. Where once upon a time I would say

Gimme a 1...!!!!

2009-08-29T08:02:00.001-04:00

Gimme a 0...!!!Gimme a 5...!!!Gimme a I.N.3.6.5...!!!Sometimes I wonder where this enthusiastic cheerleader comes from. My new-found twitter friends have noticed it. My good friends on the NS boards back in the day would always comment on it too. But why don't I feel like I am that cheerleader that everyone else seems to see?Truthfully, most of the time these days I feel as though I'm treading

FFFF #1

2009-08-28T17:34:00.005-04:00

Welcome to the first edition of Factors for being Fat Free Friday! ("Reasons to be Fat Free Friday" or "RFFF" isn't quite the same as "FFFF" so groan at the title is you must, but then get over it and work with me here people!)There are some vital habits you should create in order to make your goals are reality. Constantly reminding yourself of your goals is one of them. There are various lists

Start Immediately. No Exceptions.

2009-08-26T17:26:00.007-04:00

Why didn't I work out this morning??? Grr!! I am so mad at myself right now!!!Although I did have a much needed sleep in. I haven't been getting much sleep these days. I'm not too sure what that's about.Truth be told, I am feeling fat and sloth-like. I need to run! (damn sunburn) I also need to go back to Jenny Craig. This past month has been a refreshing break from it, but now I am ready to get

Back To It!

2009-08-25T11:50:00.005-04:00

I'm not feeling quite ready to post, but I think that's even MORE of a reason I should!Why Am I not ready to post? Because I'm not quite back into my healthy routine. But maybe blogging comes first, not last. Maybe this will help refocus me, get my butt to the grocery store and my hands back on those weights.I had a lovely time in Las Vegas. I absolutely love it there and find myself searching

The tweet that made my day

2009-08-15T14:02:00.001-04:00

I just received the nicest tweet. Of course all my new found twitter friends are fabulous, but this tweet was extra special.It was from a girl with roughly the same weight stats as me saying I am already motivating her. Wow! This makes me feel amazing!I set out with this blog and twitter account to act like jumper cables to a car battery that has run out of juice. I was the car battery. I needed

Crunching the Numbers

2009-08-15T11:18:00.003-04:00

I usually hate math, but when it comes to weight loss there's nothing I love more than punching all those numbers into a calculator!I am aiming to lose a total of 53.8% of me. WOW!Failing that, my other goal weight (my "let's get to this point and reassess" weight) is 180. Which would still be a total loss of 46.4%. Definitely not too shabby at all, huh? :)I'm currently at 22.6% of my original

Strong Like Donkey Kong!

2009-08-15T09:48:00.002-04:00

Today is Day 11 of being cigarette free! It's actually quite unbelievable how few cravings I've had this time round. Plus I recall the weeks leading up to my quit I wasn't enjoying smoking anymore. I was lighting up because of my addiction and not because I actually wanted the cigarette and hating every puff yet I couldn't help it. It's a good thing. I'm pretty sure that means I was finally

No Rest For the Wicked

2009-08-15T07:43:00.004-04:00

Another week 1 of c25k this morning. It was much easier this time. I think it's because I KNOW I can do it (although you never know... maybe getting fitter might have something to do with it too)I couldn't help noticing the number of dog owners/walkers and a lot less runners/walkers. I guess cause it's a Saturday. They're all giving themselves a little sleep in. Meanwhile I did the crime so I

A Quickie For Friday

2009-08-14T16:38:00.004-04:00

I seem to be wavering at the moment. Or at least it feels like it now that I have gone back to exercise only every second day (my muscles are telling me that they need a little rest, or is that a sign that I should push them harder?)This is just a little note to say today I vow to only put things in my mouth of nutritional value. I will gorge myself on fruit and vegetables, and I will drink all

M.I.A. = B.A.D.

2009-08-13T09:15:00.004-04:00

Yesterday was crazy. I ate well but felt like a bit of a slug because it was my day off between cardio days. I SHOULD have done some weights, but like I said, crazy! Plus my abs are sore from Tuesday's run. Which reminds me, does anyone else get that? Sore abs from running I mean? Hey, I'm not complaining, it means they're getting a workout! I'm assuming my legs don't get sore from all those

Healthy Decisions are like Rabbits

2009-08-11T11:21:00.004-04:00

Once you get two of them, they multiply like crazy!! Haha!Seriously though, one healthy decision leads to another. I have a looming 27th birthday coming up in less than two weeks and I'm just planning on going out to dinner with friends. Without even thinking, it was just assumed by all - including myself - that we would be having steak. Everyone knows I'm a steak and mash girl!But with all this

Run With It!

2009-08-11T09:14:00.014-04:00

All these thoughts running through my head about running (no pun intended) Where to start?!First off, I am in an excellent mood! Gotta love that endorphin rush post-workout! Like Elle Woods said, "Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people just don't shoot their husbands, they just don't."Secondly, my big news! This morning I finally actually ran every single interval

Being Broken

2009-08-10T08:57:00.006-04:00

There's good news and there's bad news. I'm of the school of belief that you 'rip off the band-aid' straight away with the bad news, then soothe the pain with the good news.So the bad news? I'm broken. Which is my guy's way of saying it's that girly time of the month (haha... Some find it offensive, I find it hilarious and very cute) So even though I woke up early (545am - look at me go! Take

Gone Running

2009-08-09T12:43:00.002-04:00

I heart the Nike 'Gone Running' ads. (Actually I love Nike in general but that's for another post)Just wanted to share one with you.PS. I haven't actually left and 'gone running' because I'm at work, but it's definitely inspiring me to put on my running shoes instead of my slippers when I get home!

Inhale The Fresh Air!

2009-08-09T09:46:00.004-04:00

As I was replying to a comment (Thank you again MizFit!) I noticed something when I listed off a little list of my history of quitting smoking...quit: March-Sep 2008back on the cancer sticks in Oct 2008quit: Nov 2008 - March 2009asking for lung cancer April-July 2009quit: August 5, 2009... FOR GOOD! :)Both times when I turned back to smoking, I was unemployed and job hunting (ahh, the joys of

100% Nicotine Free!

2009-08-08T22:45:00.004-04:00

Recovery Timetable (for cold turkey quitters)Within ... 20 minutes ✔ Check!Your blood pressure, pulse rate, and the temperature of your hands and feet will all return to normal.8 hours ✔ Check!Remaining nicotine in your bloodstream will have fallen to 6.25% of normal peak daily levels, a 93.25% reduction.12 hours ✔ Check!Your blood oxygen level will have increased to normal and

Why I Blog

2009-08-08T21:14:00.003-04:00

I've noticed a few 'why I blog' posts floating around, and I think when it comes to weight loss it's a team effort. So move on over and make some space, I'm jumping on the bandwagon!My Top 3 Reasons of Why I Blog (in no particular order):-- One of the major differences between my mindset at the beginning (when I was losing a lot) and my mindset lately (losing and gaining the same 5lbs/basically

Do I Need to Get All Jillian Michaels On My Ass?

2009-08-08T12:06:00.004-04:00

Question:I currently workout 30 minutes a day 6 times a week. That's 3 cardio sessions and 3 weights session on alternating days with one day off a week to rest.But! I have been doing this for 2 weeks religiously now, and while my muscles are a little sore and are definitely getting a workout, I am not seeing a result on the sclae.Now, I am the FIRST to say 'Good God girl! Only 2 weeks???

Every Day is a Fresh Start!

2009-08-08T09:37:00.004-04:00

Quitting smoking + PMS = BINGE HELL!!!!I have had a lazy day or so. Quitting smoking has sucked the energy right out of me. All I have felt capable of doing is sleeping and eating and staring at the wall. I managed to pull it together a little more yesterday as I finally got to see my guy again (with both of us so crazy busy and opposite schedules in 'distant' locations (ie. different boroughs