tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56389706088166897982010-02-01T17:52:39.480-05:00From Fattie to Hottie... my journey to lose 105lbs in the next 365 daysLil Miss D (105in365)http://www.blogger.com/profile/03936410895092604041105in365@gmail.comBlogger113125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5638970608816689798.post-4808123272205476462010-01-01T09:00:00.000-05:002010-01-01T09:00:01.290-05:00

Happy New Year!!!I will go into my New Year's resolutions in detail more when I get back from Hawaii (yep, still on vacation!) but one resolution is for sure: At some point this year (hopefully by August of course, but I will settle for any point during 2010!) I will make my goal weight/size!And there will be no more of the above illustration happening in 2010 or beyond. Period.

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Even though I have completed both a Bachelors and a Masters degree, I will admit I have never been good at keeping up with the recommended reading. Required reading I do a little better at, but honestly I would always barely get through that, if I got through all of it in the first place (I'm good at talking, debating, & proving my point with examples all topped off with a hint of defiance,

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MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!Be happy, be safe, and whatever choices you make (regardless of what they are), be PROUD of them!

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Maybe it's because most of my friends are male...Maybe it's because of the female friends I do have, they are all slim to average size...Maybe it's because I'm a size 18 as opposed to my former size 24/26, so it's "easier" to find women who are a similar size to me...Who knows? Either way, i am suddenly noticing there are more women who are a similar size to me in my day-to-day life these days.

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Does anyone else find it strange that amongst the list of things I want to do when I am at my goal size, there are quite a few... how shall we say, "risque" activities?Things like:-- I want to be a Hooters girl! (No really, I do!)-- I want to pole dance & actually be really good at it (No really, I do!)-- I want to dance in a cage or in a glass booth behind a bar, or something along those lines (

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Time's up folks! By the time this post hits its pre-scheduled posting time, I will already be on a plane somewhere between New York City and Hawaii. Woohoo!!!This is much more of a relaxation holiday; No itinerary necessary. The only thing on the agenda is walking (maybe some wogging), tanning, and relaxing. Rinse, repeat :)I will be back in 2010 refreshed, rejuvenated, tanned, & hopefully a few

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Although as obvious as this is, I must remember that this is FALSE when I am lazing around on the beach next week... 4 more sleeps to go until Hawaii vacation!

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Well! You guys certainly are a pushy bunch! hahaha!In truth, I put these pictures together when I first started this blog. But I hadn't decided whether or not to post them. My last post was specifically about how people, namely me, really do have that sparkle in their eye and truly look happier as their face gets thinner. But I wasn't about to plaster my face all over my anonymous blog. but I can

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I did a little comparison of some photos of me. It should come at no surprise that unless a photo was taken specifically as a "before" photo, finding photos of me before is actually quite difficult. And if you want to find a full body one from before? Forget it! I never let it happen!I'm noticing I'm a little more willing to be in photos and a little more willing for it be more than just a head

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Something that has been prevalent for me this week is being proud of my choices. So naturally I started throwing around ideas of that nature for my Factors for being Fat-Free Friday this week. Here's what I came up with: The three P's...Pride.Power.Personal Best.Pride.As you already know my mantra for this week (and probably beyond) is to be proud of my choices. To make whichever choices I want,

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I remember the mantra I used when I started on this journey: 'Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.' and wow did it work!But as you progress along your journey, you change much more than you realize. You need to constantly reassess and check-in with yourself. Are you motivated by the same reasons? Do you want the same things? Quite often the things that used to give you trouble and challenge you

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I am a social loner. I love being social, but I can very easily go off and do my own thing. Sometimes I am defiant about it, most times though it comes very naturally to me. I think it's the latter that worries, scares, or confuses people. But when I'm confident about something people's opinions rarely matter to me.I felt the need to blog today because it feels like forever since I have. Then I

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OK. Once again, here is something I realized a few days ago and it's so shameful it didn't even occur to me to blog about it. But here goes:Deep breath....One year ago (11/19/2008 to be exact) I was 20lbs lighter.SAY WHAT?!Yep, in the space of a year I've gained 20lbs. I know, that can't be right!!! Can it?! Wait, what? Can you please repeat that?! No wait, don't. I don't want to hear it again.

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I have a few draft blogs just sitting around. Some just from the past 7 days.... others since August. Yikes! Definitely time for me to do a little cleaning up.I would have thought some would become a moot point, especially the older ones. But glancing back I'm surprised how few are. In fact, the ones I do consider a little irrelvent now are still valid, and I don't think they should necessarily

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My Leslie Sansone DVDs have arrived!I finally saved up the cash & remembered to hit amazon.com and ordered 3 of them. Free shipping too! (Because who pays for shipping these days, really!)So here we go! No more excuses... Daylight Savings ended & it's dark out all the time? Solved!No space in teeny NYC apartment? Solved!No exercise equipment? Solved!Even the time crunch is solved because even

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So as I mentioned two weeks ago the guy I'm seeing seems to have really meant it when he said he just needed a break. But my gut told me to treat a break as a break up & I'm glad I did. It made me reassess and reboot my life & direction, and made it a pleasant surprise when he started contacting me again, especially so soon.These days I am acutely aware of anything that inspires me, motivates me,

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When I first mentioned my new best friend (of whom has still not been named! But she doesn't mind, she tags along with me whereever I go anyway), Jacey mentioned would I mind posting pictures. It would be a little personal, but definitely a good idea! Besides, I think they're too small for you guys to really read anything ;)It's probably the reason I don't blog as much as I used to. Because all

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Just checking in.... I believe I'm up to Day 29 of my mini-goal now...Everything is cruising right now. It's not great, but it's far from bad either. But for the first time in a long time, I feel as though there's nothing to push. Everything in life right now, particularly weight loss, is going to take time and it will happen when it happens. Sure, I can push, I can fight harder, but ultimately

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Confession time! I'm a midnight munchie eater.And I don't mean the late night munchies in front of the TV kind. I mean the middle of the night kind. The kind where you wake up, eat, and go back to sleep. Talk about unhealthy!It's almost scary how long I've been doing this and not really questioning it. That is to say, i do question it, and i know there's something up with that, but i'm surprised

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I'm a little bit upset & teary right now but rather than just dive in I'm going to start this one from the top.My NYC best friend (I have many best friends; sometimes classifying by region is easiest!) and we haven't really seen each other since the summer. He's had a (sort of) promotion, moved in with his partner, had to go home to KY to deal with family stuff, & probably had plenty more

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Why is it so hard to believe that I deserve this?After a tearful conversation with my mother explaining to her how much it hurts that she even entertains the notion that she might need to caution me every now & then about regaining (all) the weight, I went into great detail about how I am a very different person emotionally now. This is a difficult subject for us, or more specifically for me to

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I was watching The Biggest Loser on Hulu when one of the contestants said 'the next time you see me America I will be done with losing weight'(excuse me if I just butchered the quote; it's not verbatim).This one hit me like a slap in the face: A great factor for being fat free is to be DONE. I want to be done with losing weight.Honestly, I'm tired. I'm sick of this. Why can't I just be at goal

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I have been feeling a little lost this last week or so. In the moment, things are fine, I'll probably even tell you that I'm happy. Which is true. But nonetheless, I feel like I'm playing catch up right now. I am letting old habits creep back in. The way things become so 'important' to me that they get all my time and energy and focus and dedication, when really the ONLY thing in my life that

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I almost missed Factors for being Fat Free Friday! This week has been crazy. Slipping but not quite. Succeeding but not really. Lots of ups & downs, lack of sleep, work, school, study, repeat. Not to mention the guy I was seeing for a year and a half has come back into the picture (wow, did he really mean it when he said he needed a break? Was I too cynical in assuming it was a break up?). I

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Sweet Success... woke up and - get this! - I was actually EXCITED to make another day filled with good decisions! How awesome is that?! I woke up, got excited about having another perfect or near-perfect day, smiled, and thought 4.2. That's literally what went through my mind. I'm so thrilled that a switch somewhere in my head has been flipped. Now to nurture and take care of it! (Oh, and I did

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